The Heart that Waits - Poem

Seated in a corner
Her face is turned away
She mouths the words to a secret song
And smiles not knowing my eyes see

I've tried to coax her from her shell
And to help her accept that it's okay
But whenever I happen to show within her sight
Her vibrant colors quickly fade

I want so badly to love her
Because I know that's what she needs
But how do you love someone you can't know,
Because they always hide themselves away?

It's so strange that I cannot grasp something
And yet I so greatly fear it's loss
The more I like her
The more I am terrified of her
For she holds the whole fate of my heart

I know that if I cannot love her
And if she cannot love me
Then I shall never love anyone
For we are tied together irrevocably

It would never be permissible
For me to taste of another's sweetness
And if I fail to win her
Then my soul shall never know completeness

But with every soft advance
I feel her gently pull away
Alas her heart's not in my hands
And it's all I can do to wait patiently

But whenever I am downcast
Her compassion gives me hope

Hope that one day she'll be mine

And that at last... I will be hers